First of all, you can check out my recap of getting hit by a car while on my training run (Yep. That Happened) on my other blog, The Culture Barista. To sum up: I am fine, the other driver apologized, and aside from an EPIC bruise on my arm and knee, I am not hurt. Training will continue as planned, however I may do just weights today instead of yoga as I want to give my left ankle some time before I really use it again. It’s not hurt per se, just feels a little tight. And it could have been so much worse.
I just want to post a quick thing I wanted to say about Intuitive Eating and calorie counting.
I personally need the calorie counting to be a part of my life-at least, for the meals I plan myself. I tend to undereat sometimes simply because on days where I don’t work out, I have a lot of fat in my diet already so I don’t really eat a lot. When it’s to my own devices and I construct my meals, I actually have to work hard to bulk them up so I eat enough. I try to consume over 2200 calories a day because of how active I am and because of how much lean muscle I have (STRONG LIKE BULL) so I go through calories like Kim Kardashian goes through boyfriends. When I’m not in charge of the meal, I eat until fullness. End of sentence. It sounds simple, but it’s really hard. When you begin to feel full, don’t plow through until you’re stuffed. Can you breathe? Could you walk around for a little bit without feeling like you’re going to die? Can you simply…be with yourself? Then you’re doing it right. If you have to undo the buttons on your pants because homahgawd you’re gonna die, then you’re doing it wrong.
I did it wrong for about 24 years of my life, so don’t worry about it.
That being said, sometimes you get a craving. Today I was eating a turkey sandwich for lunch and was about to dig into my lunch ‘dessert’, an orange (I tend to go for fruits rather than chocolate for my lunch desserts) and then I remembered I had bought a few individual packs of Popchips. I debated whether or not I really wanted the bag before the orange and then took a few slices of orange down as I debated. Then, I realized: I wasn’t debating the Popchips because I was deciding if I really wanted them. I was debating whether or not they fit into my calories for lunch.
I quickly made an assessment of my body. I was still a bit hungry. I should just shut up and eat a few of the chips and see if I really did want them. So I cracked open a bag of the single-serving chips and had about half the bag. And then I realized that my craving was satisifed. I didn’t want anymore. And I wrapped up the rest of the bag and put it away.
This. Is. HUGE for me. Back in the days when my EDNOS would be raging, I would literally have been standing in front of the pantry worrying myself into a frenzy, trying to figure out if I should have the Popchips, or a vegetable, or something else.
Honor your craving and you won’t tilt back the fridge later on. Trust me. Just give in a little bit. It’ll feel so good. Granted, my craving was healthy (who the hell craves Popchips?) but I’m glad I did it. I don’t feel stuffed, just full and good. I’m satisfied because I had what I truly wanted for lunch: A turkey/hummus sandwich, Popchips, roasted asparagus, and an orange.
Every day, a new discovery.
Now, my anxiety sometimes comes from not getting enough food in me on the days where I work out. The days I use as rest days are honestly no biggies. I just eat lighter amounts. But trying to shovel food down my throat during my training is something I need to be prepared for. Of course, I have about nine pounds of granola/snack/protein bars, so I’m locked and loaded. 😉
(btw thank you so much to everyone who complimented me on my last blog entry. I actually got the idea from the incredible Andrea over at Can You Stay For Dinner. Her original series about what she missed from being obese was what inspired me to write the blog in the first place. Love you Andrea!)